Had a tiff with dearest last night. That explains why my eyes were swollen today.

Perhaps we had a different mindset in marriage & after marriage. Our work had been making us so stress out & we had to plan our marriage stuffs. Worst thing was dearest did not consult any of our parents in which I suggest we should since marriage is not about two of us. Sometimes I just don't know what he is thinking.

Had a dream last night that we were exchanging our vows & suddenly my customers are calling me to help them with their enquiries in which I couldn't finish saying my vows. Pretty sad case!

The only thing that our names are not Jason and Karyn.

We talked bout 10years down the road after marriage. Will we still be as loving as we are now? We had been quarrelling ever since we got together after 2years. And dearest woke me up with his words. He was right. When we first dating each other, we would sat at a bench near my house & we will have heart-to-heart talks everyday. We told each other how we feel, we told each other what happened that very day cuz dearest was in his last uni year at NTU that time. I was working as a customer service at a small local firm. He would fetch me everyday after work & send me home. Memories.

But ever since he started working after his graduation, and I started changing job after a year and so to a higher-pay job everytime, we did not have the interest to ask about each other's life anymore.

We thought that co-habiting is a good idea & we will not be drifted apart. Hence, I moved in to his house last year & had been staying there till now. Coming to a year but we were quarrelling almost everyday. I realised we did not understand each other that well either after so long. But we really couldn't live without one another. That was the truth.

We tried to move to the future closer. We signed up a bridal shoot last weekend with a Taiwan bridal shop, Judy Wedding. That was one thing down our list in the whole list of marriage stuffs.
We aimed to get everything done by next year but it seems impossible. Sighs. But I know dearest is trying real hard to give me a good life. But HDB just can't approve our application for choosing flats. Is it because Im not even 21?!




Just so tired of everything. We need more communication, I guess.


On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY. I love you (: