Had a tiff with dearest last night. That explains why my eyes were swollen today.

Perhaps we had a different mindset in marriage & after marriage. Our work had been making us so stress out & we had to plan our marriage stuffs. Worst thing was dearest did not consult any of our parents in which I suggest we should since marriage is not about two of us. Sometimes I just don't know what he is thinking.

Had a dream last night that we were exchanging our vows & suddenly my customers are calling me to help them with their enquiries in which I couldn't finish saying my vows. Pretty sad case!

The only thing that our names are not Jason and Karyn.

We talked bout 10years down the road after marriage. Will we still be as loving as we are now? We had been quarrelling ever since we got together after 2years. And dearest woke me up with his words. He was right. When we first dating each other, we would sat at a bench near my house & we will have heart-to-heart talks everyday. We told each other how we feel, we told each other what happened that very day cuz dearest was in his last uni year at NTU that time. I was working as a customer service at a small local firm. He would fetch me everyday after work & send me home. Memories.

But ever since he started working after his graduation, and I started changing job after a year and so to a higher-pay job everytime, we did not have the interest to ask about each other's life anymore.

We thought that co-habiting is a good idea & we will not be drifted apart. Hence, I moved in to his house last year & had been staying there till now. Coming to a year but we were quarrelling almost everyday. I realised we did not understand each other that well either after so long. But we really couldn't live without one another. That was the truth.

We tried to move to the future closer. We signed up a bridal shoot last weekend with a Taiwan bridal shop, Judy Wedding. That was one thing down our list in the whole list of marriage stuffs.
We aimed to get everything done by next year but it seems impossible. Sighs. But I know dearest is trying real hard to give me a good life. But HDB just can't approve our application for choosing flats. Is it because Im not even 21?!




Just so tired of everything. We need more communication, I guess.


On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY. I love you (:

Happy 3yrs & 3months Anniversary.
Thanks dearest for everything. I love you baby (:

God daughter's 1yr birthday tomorrow. Red packet for her =D
Buffet and some catching up with Von, perhaps?

7th month, not going to stay out late nor any clubbing sessions this month. Im gon be a good girl (:

Just a bad dream last night made me realized how much I love dearest. Woking up in tears and seeing him sleeping just beside me made me felt relieved. 3yrs and counting on, we are so used to having one another but this Love thing just made me speechless.
Those tiffs and fights we had, being angry with one another for few hours but laughing our ass off upon seeing each other's angry faces, bring us closer once again.

Unbelieveable feelings & sweet memories.

Not sure when is the last time we actually hold hands and went out together. Not sure when is the last time we were holding hands and window-shopping together. Not sure when is the last time we hold hands and had the whole day to ourselves together.

So much doubts.

Not about leaving me alone, having dinner with your friends. Not about leaving you alone, having dinner with my friends. Not upset over this nor being alone, just upset on how you place me in your last whenever you are with your friends. Seems like a wild wolf who had been released from its own cage and forgotten who was the one who had been through so much with you.

Perfect in the surface. Life is so ironic.

I don't want a boyfriend, I want a real man.

My first day of work turned out to be good. Closed two orders on my very first day. So proud of myself (:

Transformers last night. Awesome! Me love :D

Dearest said I look very OL with my dressing & carrying the laptop with my Coach bag. LMAO

Gotta get my ass to work now. Till then (:

Wow, my last post was in Nov 08. Been half a year since I blogged.
My laziness had been due and here Im gon blog again..
Things are getting great for me. Be it family, bf, work and friends.. Everything is just so great ((:

I knew some very great colleagues during my 9months in Classic. They are totally awesome & I miss them so much ever since I left. I tendered my job to go for a much high paying job & better prospects of cuz. I think I can pretty survive in the new company anyway.

Boyfriend and I went to Batam last weekend & I totally enjoyed myself. Met up with bf's best friend at Batam View Resort & we hanged out together. No pictures up cuz I forgotten to bring my cam.
We rushed out of the house as we were very very late. We were supposed to reach TMFT at 11am but we woke up at 10.30am. LOL. Prepared & left home at 10.55am & cabbed down to TMFT. Pretty lucky that we remembered our passports. HAHA
The 3hours spa package we had was damn relaxing thou the feeling of being naked infront of the massager felt so weird.. esp when she asked if she can massage my chest. LOL! Dearest slept thru the whole process & I think he pretty enjoyed it too. (:
We celebrated our 3yrs anniversary on Superstar Virgo Cruise & I lost 300bucks to the stupid Carribean Poker. Such a bitch. This time round, we fully made use of the day at Redang & joined in the games with the crew. Memorable 3yrs anniversary. Thanks baby (:

On the lighter note, it feels so sweet having to wake up every morning and the first thing I see is dearest beside me.. Hopefully dearest don't get nightmares seeing me beside him when he woke up. HAHA. I will prolly give him a tight slap.

And finally, I hit the clubs with my babes last Wed. It was a totally "awesome" night. I doubt all of us enjoyed the night. No more ladies night at StJames anymore but still, is the company that counts. I still love you girls =)
Mac for supper & dearest fetched Steph & Beka home then we headed home.



Shall update again.. so till then (:

Fish and Co with dollies last night.
Jen, Beka & Steph.
Total bill came up to 80bucks which is darn cheap. We had fries, rice and calamaris on the house due to the crew's wrong orders.
We found a strand of hair and we got 10% discount for overall bill.
Im starting to love Fish and Co. (:

Mos Burger for chill and catching up. Amk Hub's aircon is freezing cold.
Had a second-hand puff. Not good not good.

BFF send me home with her new bike. (:
Kinda of scared but still home safe and sound. HAHA

Meeting up with old pals tonight.
Hope everyone turns up.

kkthxbye