Monday, June 28, 2010

It sucks when you think that the person you loved most understand you the most but it wasn't.
It sucks when you feel that he isn't the right one when the wedding comes nearer.
It sucks when there is any unhappiness in your heart and if you ever voice out, you are being labelled as crazy.
It sucks when you are at work but typing this out and cry like a mad woman cause there are so much unhappiness within your heart.

Life just suck, isn't it.
Why should we even live for others?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

5more months to go before my wedding but I have no mood for any preparations at all.

Life is so fragile.

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Day 4...
Popo is really not coming back anymore. I have no more chance to dote on her as how she had doted on me.

Tonight is the last night of the wake. The feeling.. I really don't bear to let Popo go. As much as I wanted to stay by the wake throughout, I can't take it. My body don't let me do so. Im too tired and too shag to report for work the next day. But I still dragged my feet to work.
I wanted to let Popo know, I will take care of her favourite grandson, which is my husband-to-be, Hongen. I will take care of my future MIL and don't make her worried.

Popo, but deep in my heart, I really want you to be back.
Can someone please tell me this is all a dream? And that Popo will be back... real and lively infront of us.

Monday, June 07, 2010

我们最怕的一天始终还是到来。我真得很舍不得你,婆婆。我很不想要你走。

She loved us, dotes on us with her heart. Her big heart was spread among all 30+ people. Her unconditional love to everyone of us.. her smiles, her cuteness.. everything.
Popo, I want you back.. really I do.

Popo, Im not jealous Hongen loves you more than me. I really don't mind cause I know the love you had given to Hongen is unreplaceable by me.
Popo, Im not jealous, so can you come back? Please...

The death of 2 beloved ones within a month is tearing me apart. As much as I do not want her to go, is a matter of fact she had gone.
Im feeling fucking terrible in my heart and the pain just feel like stabbing me right at my heart.
The moment the stupid doctor pronounced her dead, the feeling sucks. As much as we do not want her to suffer, at least she went in peace.

But Popo, you wanted so much to attend Hongen and my wedding! You promised to help me look after my kids!

All of us don't want you to leave. Can you tell us how can we make you come back?
Popo, please. I beg you. Please!!

Friday, June 04, 2010

Too busy with many things recently.
Work.. life.. family.. wedding preps..everything in fact.

Been waking up in the middle of 2am-3am every morning to start working with USA, checking my emails like a mad cow.
Been sleeping less than 5hours a day makes me look a zombie. Everyone knows that I hate to doll up despite Im working in town area except if I have to meet up with customers or having dinner after work... so that explains the zombie next day at work.


On a lighter note, Shannon, Winnie, dearest and I went to JB for horse riding. It was a great experience though. Pictures are up in FB (:
Spent 700bucks in this 2D1N trip. Sian ttm.

We bought our new bed at Courts yesterday! One thing down our list again.. =D
Queen size mattress by Sleep Clinic and a brown bedframe, at least the colour suits our built-in wardrobe colour and the room colour, light blue/ purple which future father-in-law had helped to paint during our absent.
I think we gon paint it to another colour soon. Before we do that, we gon clear alot of stuffs in the room. And is A-L-O-T.

Will update more often... soon.