So much things in my mind now as wedding is coming nearer. Can't describe my mixed feelings now. It is not about dearest, I guess is about me. Me being paranoid for nothing.

Paranoid about the money, the honeymoon package we booked from Chan Brothers. Chan brother's reviews isn't that good afterall... I just found out couple minutes ago.

I don't want to spend my Honeymoon miserably. I want happy moments with dearest.

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world.

Dearest asked me yesterday, if I'm angry with my friend. I told him, yes & no. But I guess I love her more than I'm angry with her.

She is there for me about half of my life. The happy memories are more than those that are sad. (:

I wish her all the best in her future career because I know, as a true friend, I should be happy for her that she is going after her dreams.

Let's jiayou together!

May our friendship cheers forever.

Love you babe.

I should be more than contented with my life. Dearest has been really very sweet and accommodating to all my needs and wants. I don't deny that I'm not a good gf, but I'm sure I will be a good wife after 13th Nov 2010.

Engaging JP for our ROM is done. (:

At least one thing down our list again.

People asked me why did I choose my dear as my right one. And people always tell me I'm very very fortunate to find dear which I admit, I'm fortunate.

1) He is down to earth. He is honest and what he earns come from his hard work. He don't use his parents' money. Even when our banquet and wedding stuff cost up to 62K, he did not ask his parents for a single money. Everything comes from our own pocket. I'm very proud of him and us. All these comes with planning, I guess. No?

2) He takes care of me very well. The age gap between us doesn't give us any problems. He tried all his ways and make sure he gets along with my family and relatives. And yes, all my cousins love him alot. My parents love him as well.

3) He makes sure I always get the best things. He makes sure I will not suffer. Thank you dear.

Thank you dear. Thank you for everything & anything that you make me feel so fortunate.

When I said I want to go USA, you told me next year June when YS & you are going to join WSOP. You said you will bring me to LV and Grand Canyon.

When I said I want to go Japan, you told me next year Dec, we shall have White Xmas again.

When I said I want to go Disneyland, you told me you will bring me to all the countries where Disneyland is.

When I said I want to go New Zealand & Canadian Rockies, you told me you will chiong more rentals and sales so we can go next year July.

And all these will be fulfilled by next year before we have a child.

What else can I ask for?

Just you baby, thank you.

All these travelling & wants are not what I want the most, I just want to hold your hand and stay in your arms till we grow old.

Once bitten, twice shy.

I will not introduce any job to any friends from now onwards. Sorry to say that, stop asking me if my company wanna hire anyone. Go and find a job yourself.

I'm disappointed in you. I admit I'm. Although I tried very hard not to get angry nor disappointed in you, I can't help it.

You told me you want to earn loads of money and asked me to push you into my company to work. I helped you and you got the job. The very first month, you showed so much aggression and hard work, I thought: Yes, you can make it. We are going to be a good team and let our boss know even though we are young, but we can still do it better than the any other "adults".

But you have to know that "Not everyday is a Sunday" theory. You are not messing up the accounts, but have you ever think that did you really put in 100% hard work?

Or because of the lot that you had drawn at the temple, so you think no matter how hard you try, your effort will not be recognized? If that is the case, even if you find your favorite job, the outcome will still be the same.

The chance is given to you...

Seriously, I'm sick of people asking me about you. Even though I'm not obligated to help you to explain, but I think I have the right to help you explain, because you are my best friend and I was the one who introduce this job to you.

Eventually, it is still your choice and even though I will respect your decision, but I want to know if you ever did put in 100% effort to this job.

My luck in getting orders are here.. but no luck in securing the stocks. 3 POs, no stock. Is this bad luck or what?

I need to hit at least 75K a month for the next 5 months so I can get 5K usd from company. With this 5K usd, I will go Maldives with dearest.

On a lighter note, we had booked our Honeymoon package with Chan Brothers. 14D12N Europe tour, departing via KLM on 19th Dec 2010. Im very excited cause I will be spending my 21st birthday in Paris and Xmas in Swiss! =D

Till then.

Sometimes I wish we can put everything aside and go far far away...
To a place where qualifications, money and work doesn't matter..
A place where we can do whatever we want and live by each other everyday.
Rear animals, grow strawberries, make cheese, brew wine & milk the cows & goats.
Enjoy each other's company & grow old together
I want to wake up to breathe the freshest air and fall asleep under a sky of thousand stars together with you every night.
Everything will be perfect by then, for you and me.