I can't believe the new post Im typing out now is only when my grandfather had passed away. He had passed away peacefully in his sleep yesterday, Monday at 1258pm. I only knew about it at around 2pm which means I did not see him for the last time. Im glad, in my heart that I went to visit him on Sunday night thou.. his face wasn't good, he is not feeling well and he insisted not to go hospital despite we asked him to. Perhaps he know he is leaving us, I don't know.
I don't know how many times I will need to go through this.
5years ago during this period, my uncle passed away. He was like a father to my siblings and I. He was always there to lecture us, be it in we are naughty or not. He died when he suffered a heart attack.
One year later, during this period as well, my grandmother passed away. I love my grandmother alot. But I did not manage to see her for the last time as well. I was supposed to visit her the day before but I was tired from work, hence I headed home. She was just staying opposite me but I can't bring my legs to visit her everyday.. I can go out, I can go shopping but not visiting her. I really regret my doings. I know is too late so I tried my best to be a better granddaughter to her husband, which is my paternal grandfather.
A year later, my great-grandmother in malaysia passed away. I did not go to the funeral because I was held up at work. I had too much things on hand that I could not afford to put down and go in for a few days. I only managed to see her once a year which is CNY. She dotes on us alot, because we seldom visit her.
Last year, my aunt committed sucide. She jumped down from 7floors.. she was put into ICU for a week, but she did not survive. We used to be so close, she will always be there, joking with me.
Yesterday, my maternal grandfather passed away. I admit that Im closer to my paternal side because from young, Im being look after by my paternal grandmother & grandfather. Despite that, grandpa still loves us alot. He will buy sweets for us, he will scoop rice and dishes for us when we were at his house for dinner or gathering. He will always be there for us. He is the Mr-Nice guy in our big family. He is generous, he is gentle and he had never once scolded us.
Life is so fragile. I do not want to go through this kind of pain anymore. I had already learnt to cherish my husband-to-be, my parents, my family, my relatives and my friends.
I don't know how many times I will need to go through this.
5years ago during this period, my uncle passed away. He was like a father to my siblings and I. He was always there to lecture us, be it in we are naughty or not. He died when he suffered a heart attack.
One year later, during this period as well, my grandmother passed away. I love my grandmother alot. But I did not manage to see her for the last time as well. I was supposed to visit her the day before but I was tired from work, hence I headed home. She was just staying opposite me but I can't bring my legs to visit her everyday.. I can go out, I can go shopping but not visiting her. I really regret my doings. I know is too late so I tried my best to be a better granddaughter to her husband, which is my paternal grandfather.
A year later, my great-grandmother in malaysia passed away. I did not go to the funeral because I was held up at work. I had too much things on hand that I could not afford to put down and go in for a few days. I only managed to see her once a year which is CNY. She dotes on us alot, because we seldom visit her.
Last year, my aunt committed sucide. She jumped down from 7floors.. she was put into ICU for a week, but she did not survive. We used to be so close, she will always be there, joking with me.
Yesterday, my maternal grandfather passed away. I admit that Im closer to my paternal side because from young, Im being look after by my paternal grandmother & grandfather. Despite that, grandpa still loves us alot. He will buy sweets for us, he will scoop rice and dishes for us when we were at his house for dinner or gathering. He will always be there for us. He is the Mr-Nice guy in our big family. He is generous, he is gentle and he had never once scolded us.
Life is so fragile. I do not want to go through this kind of pain anymore. I had already learnt to cherish my husband-to-be, my parents, my family, my relatives and my friends.
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